Have you ever had a time in your life when you struggled to have faith?? I have.
A few weeks ago, my daughter got sick. She woke up feeling fine so we went to the library and were looking at books. When we were there, she suddenly got very pale and had very low energy. Her head was hurting and she had some stomach pains. Later that day, the symptoms were not as strong but she had not returned back from normal.
She then spent the next couple of weeks with decreased energy and a decreased appetite.
So, we did what we thought best, we took her to a doctor, got blood work done, and are cutting back sugar. But, even with all that, we still don’t know what is going on. The doctors tell me it’s migraines with residual headaches but nothing seems to be helping her pain. So we wait and we see and we continue down this road.
These types of things are hard because the road is unknown. We don’t know if this is a new normal or if it is temporary. We don’t know if it’s anything more serious and If we should be more concerned or if it is just headaches.
During these times, it’s hard to understand what God is doing and even if He hears me. My husband and I pray for wisdom and peace daily but have not gotten many answers.
For many of you, there are daily things that go on that don’t make sense so you struggle with having faith in God.
Because one of my children is in pain and not acting her usual self, I get easily overwhelmed and sometimes my mind goes to the worst case scenario.
It’s easy to just let my mind stay on that path, but instead, I choose to pray.
I can’t control the outcome and I can’t control a hundred different things, but going to God in prayer is the one thing I can control.
Prayer makes me stop and focus on what I feel. It helps me express my feelings fears and hopes to God.
Even if we don’t hear God or see an answer, we know that God hears our prayers
“Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him.”
I John 5:14-15 NKJV
By going to Him, we are handing over our burdens and fears. He loves to hear from us and just the act of prayer makes our load lighter.
When we doubt or are not sure what God is doing, it’s hard to trust in His plan.
But, in those times we need to remember that:
“And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”
Romans 8:28 NKJV
God loves us and we can trust Him that His plan is good. His plan might mean pain and loss and disappointment but we can trust His plan.
One thing I do to help me remember this truth is to sing this song:
Get Godly council
When you have times of uncertainty in your life and you can’t seem to hear God or see Him, one of the things to do is seek Godly council. This may be a friend or a pastor. Either way, they are people you can trust to pray with you and for you. They might even have insight into your situation and may be able to steer you to a decision or give you peace about a decision you have already made.
God wants us in community with other Christians so that we can encourage one another and carry one another burdens.
Right now, there are many people praying for my daughter. Just knowing that so many people are interceding on her behalf gives me joy and peace.
We are not alone in this journey and should not try to carry our struggles on our own.
Trust the system
Right now we are waiting to hear back from the clinic about the blood work. The waiting is hard because I know it probably won’t show anything and that more test may have to be done. But, we can’t just jump to an MRI or another test, we have to follow protocol and go through the proper Channels.
It’s easy to get uneasy or to have droughts that the doctors don’t know what they are doing, but they do. It’s still our responsibility to follow-up and ask questions. We can ask for a second opinion, but at the end of the day, we have to have some trust that these people know what they are doing and are doing their best.
A few nights ago, as I was praying for my daughter and the situation, I felt The Lord say: lean into me.
I had this picture of a father asking a child for a snuggle.
We are not always going to understand why we are going through a particular struggle, but we can lean into God and get comfort from Him
“Now may the God of patience and comfort grant you to be like-minded toward one another, according to Christ Jesus,”
Romans 15:5 NKJV
Ask for help
Right now I am not sure what life will look like for the rest of the day, let alone the week. There are many unknowns. But, one thing I do know is that our family is not alone and we are surrounded by people who love us and would be willing to help us.
Asking for help is one area that I struggle with. I don’t know why, but I have this idea that asking for help is a sign of weakness. But, that is a lie. Asking for help is a way we can open ourselves up to God’s blessing through other people. So, instead of dragging all 3 children to doctor’s appointments, I ask others if they are able to look after my other children. It’s not a lot, but it’s enough to share my burden.
Sometimes when we pray, God tells us to wait. We don’t get an answer, or a resolution or even a timeline.
“Wait on the LORD; Be of good courage, And He shall strengthen your heart; Wait, I say, on the LORD!”
Psalms 27:14 NKJV
This is not a guarantee that things will work out or that we will be happy with the outcome. But, as we wait for life to happen, we also wait on The Lord. As we wait, He will strengthen our hearts and make our faith deeper and stronger.
I am not sure what you are struggling with right now. Maybe you are facing a difficult time or the future is uncertain. I hope that you are encouraged and that you have God’s peace as you wait.
You are not alone
Since I first sat down and wrote this blog, my daughter’s health has gotten better. She is still complaining of headaches but her energy is back to what is was and so is her appetite.
It was a very scary couple of weeks and it made me so much more aware that this is how people live on a regular basis. So many people have health problems that are never resolved or that don’t have a simple answer. I just got a short glimpse of what chronic illness may look for a family. My heart breaks for families with illness and an unknown future.
Originally posted 2017-05-22 04:37:30.